the terrible, horrible no good very bad day.......

Hello all:
Today has been one of the longest days yet. I am getting cabin fever badly, I miss my husband so much, and I just want this whole chapter of my life to be over. On top of that I am having such a bad day whenever I have talked to my husband we have been fighting. I just feel like he is slacking and not trying to find us a place to live. I want so badly for us to find a place and get moved over and move on. My kids need their dad around more than 1 day every 14 days, and I NEED MY HUSBAND. I wish he could just understand that. I am ready for him to come home and pick us all up and take us back with him. I am sick of waiting 14 days just to see him about 24 hours, then say goodbye and start it all over again. I miss him the girls miss him, and i am done with this. Well thanks for letting me blab again. Talk to you all soon!!

Today is such a gloomy day outside. I miss my husband, and feel like the days drag by. It seems like they would go by a little faster since I have a 2 year old and a 4 month old to keep me busy. I am just used to having him hear to talk to, and actually have him talk back. My kids are really good listeners, unless I am telling my oldest to do something! Well I am off for now, going to give my hubby a call!!

Really?

So this whole having my husband live in another state is hard enough, not to mention fighting with him over the phone. UGH.... I am so over all of this. I can't stand the stress anymore, I love him so much, but man I can only take so much. The whole fight was about a status update I posted on my facebook page like 2 weeks ago, something about how much I miss him, and couldn't wait for the couple of weeks to get over so we would be able to be together....You would have thought I was trashing him on my page, and it was like 2 weeks ago that it was even on there, right now my status is from yesterday about how I had such a good easter with my family, and loved spending time with him and the kids....So here I sit crying my eyes out, blogging yet again. I am glad I found this place to let my feelings out where people won't go running and tell him, oh Jamie is blubbering about you again, yadda yadda yadda. Well once again thanks for letting me vent here!!

Day 2

So its another day, one without my husband here with me. I love that he is doing what he has to do to make life better for our family. Our kids are our lives, and we will do anything for them to make their lives better, but this is really hard on me. I am a married mother with 2 beautiful girls, but yet for the last month, and still close to a month to go, I have been in a sence a single mom. I am not cut out for being a single mom, and thank the good lord that I do have a wonderful husband, that loves his family more than life itself. I just am not good at this thing we all call Change. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. All I want to do is have my family back together. I never ever imagined how hard it would be to have him gone. When we first talked about this I was like ok, I can handle this, he will work, and come home every weekend, no big deal. Then it happened and we realized that we have to save as much money as we can, so that we can move faster, and decided the best way to do that was for him to only come home every other weekend, still the original thought sounded ok, we can do this. Well the reality of it is 14 days has never taken so long to get through, untill you have to have a 14 day countdown, just to have some quality time with your husband. My kids miss him so much; I never knew how much a 2 year old could get depressed. Well thank you for letting me get my feelings out here, as simple as it is to do, it truly makes me feel a little better to just let my emotions flow!! Untill later, have a great day!